in many ways, it feels as if i am trying to find my way back to myself. this year has been a challenging one. amid the concern for the next direction life would take us, i was working to take four different classes for work, there were months of limbo - knowing we'd be relocating but no idea where, and then finally the news. many days i felt as if i was drowning in the noise of it all.
it seems during this time, that quiet voice that my soul speaks was muted by busyness and checklists, which for me, creates a really toxic feeling that i emotionally react to by shutting down and retreating from. it is almost like the volume of life gets turned up too loud and i just can't hear through the noise.
so as the dust settles a bit (and we are still very much in the throws of change) but it's at a point where i can turn around and acknowledge how crazy it all has felt. how i need to find myself again. how this quiet voice from my soul needs to be heard and tended to and how i must tend to myself in the process.
this year has also brought hard reminders as to why listening to this voice of our soul is so important. my mind tries to make sense of recent news of two strong, talented, and wonderful women whom i worked with, who both lost their fight to cancer. this news was difficult having lost an incredible woman here whom we loved this year as well. so i continue to hold all three of these women close to my heart and with deep gratitude that our paths crossed and for the light they shared with the world.
so as this chapter wraps up and a new one awaits, i savor each and every moment and work to remain there in that present moment.