sperlygirl

  Winter has been rather warm here this year. And the last few days have been rainy and gray. I love a good rainy day - one that's kind of chilly, where the clouds fill the sky, and the fog or mist hovers low above the ground. They are a good balance.

    A self-portrait I took between classes this week...please disregard all bags under eyes! :)

Practicing patience

   There is so much going on right now and when that happens I always tend to want to put life on "fast forward" to speed through the stressful or loaded stuff. But in doing that, one misses out on so much. I was reading through some yoga articles tonight and a woman talked about her teacher who used to end practice by having the students chant, I love what comes and I love what goes. Perfecto! The "stuff" will always be there - the form may change or the circumstance - but it will always be there. The lesson then isn't how we get through things...it's how we live with these things. How do we choose to walk through this? How will we choose to let circumstance affect or not affect us? It's all a simple matter of choice, isn't it? It's a matter of intent.

see su run

  

I love the feeling of inhaling life deep into my lungs as I am running. I imagine it pumping into every cell in my body; allowing me to exhale anything unnecessary and burdensome. I am getting to the point of "needing" a run. Oh, I have come to terms with the fact that I'll never be a marathoner, fast runner, or sprinter - but I love the freedom I feel from running when I reach about the midway point. I have learned how to compete against my fiercest competition and toughest critic...myself. Those first few minutes my mind runs through 100 different reasons why I shouldn't run today. Then my body tries to shout out in protest with varying twitches and aches...but I just tell myself "5 more minutes then see how you feel".  On the really good days, Ms. Angie is right there next to me and shouting out encouragement as we push forward (thanks friend!). By minute 20, I am feeling powerful and capable - my strong legs and lungs able to carry me though whatever life throws at me. By minute 30, I am thinking "I could do this for 30 more....well maybe not that long, but certainly a few moments more." And then as the treadmill starts to slow, and I am able to chalk a several more miles onto this pair of shoes; the feeling of accomplishment makes all those mind games totally worth it.

distant ramblings

       This week has been one of those where you ask yourself "What ELSE?"... really. And the thing of it is, it's been a combination of both good and bad rolled into seven days.  An upcoming change of address (residence not location), creation of the school yearbook (life consuming), the sad news of j's grandma passing (heartbreaking), con's visit next week (thankful) - just a lot of life packed into one week. And to top that off, I have been having some "Mama-a-ha-Moments". While walking this week, I surmised there is a lot of heartache involved in being a mama...not heartache in the sense there is something wrong, lacking, or  not right - but in the sense of watching it all pass  by so quickly. I have discovered that motherhood, from the start, is a process of letting go - releasing - relinquishing all control. Never has my heart felt so full and yet so heavy for the moments that are speeding by like a shooting star. I treasure each day, fussy ones along with the memorable ones. Tis a journey....this ebb and flow.

snap of our day … thursday

  Ok, so I cheated a bit here - took this pic a week or so ago. But this week has become crowded with "stuff"... can't stand that as I feel so disorganized and chaotic. This pic kinda "Zen"s me back to a calmer state of mind.

 

snap of our day…wednesday

  It's gray, rainy, chilly and otherwise the kind of afternoon which requires a strong cafe, warm blanket, and good book or much neglected knitting. On the flip side, it warms my heart to have a 'little guy' to give this Valentine to next week.

snap of our day…tuesday

On our way to work this morning, hidden in the glow of this lazy sunrise, peaked the teeniest of rainbows. Even though the picture is blurry, the over saturated colors really struck me.

Snap of our day … monday

Everyday this pup waits eagerly for someone to visit him. We always wave to him from our windows....it makes his tail wag and wag.

snapshot of my day

 

 

 In reading Amanda's blog today, she issued a   challenge  to post a photograph from our daily lives...so I took a look around this afternoon - and this is what I came up with.  My evening consists of soaking up time with J & Kai - and right now it's more about keeping Kai off the stairs (which he is rather persistently trying to master). I also take a moment to gaze out onto our view of the mountain. Usually the colors in the evenings range the pastel spectrum; while during the day, if the weather permits, you can find the sky peppered with paragliders spiraling and circling amidst the clouds. This winter has been unusually warm...truly we've been more worried about getting rid of mosquitoes around here lately then bundling up to go outside!