i must say that this second time around with pregnancy feels much more grounded and present. with kai, i was so caught up in bliss for the whole 9 months (and still many days since) but with this one, i am much more acutely aware of everything - both good and worrisome. i have so many 'what ifs' this time around and some days i simply long for the bliss i felt before. don't get me wrong, i feel wonderful and so blessed to be in this position -- it's just that the worries, concerns, fears, and doubts seem much more real this time around. it is a lesson for me in trusting and letting go.
(i must admit that this is actually a portrait - as it was too difficult to set up without the help from j)
