the time is almost near...and with it, comes a swirl of emotions. many of which arise because i am an only child and this is all i have ever known (although i always longed for a sibling).
my emotions seem to run the gamut these days from being concerned as to how kai will deal with this new little one, a little saddened at how his world will change dramatically, to anticipating how caring for two will change our worlds, to the excitement and anticipation that comes with the arrival are a new baby and all the dreaming of who this little person will be.
those feelings gingerly balance with those final physical ones of feeling uncomfortable, wondering how the labor will unfold, and how we'll manage and navigate this public italian hospital (thankfully we have a doctor whom we'd follow to the ends of the earth).
it amazes me how "a bundle of love who grows just beneath your heart" (as my grandma told me and i just loved the description) can create such a whirlwind of thoughts and emotions.
so in the meanwhile, i just try to keep myself busy, cherish each moment with kai as it is now and help him realize that love only grows greater with a growing family. and his role in this family and with this baby will be one that is cherished, valuable, needed, and important to us all.
**a beautiful tune i am feeling today **
