i feel like i just blinked and there went ten years...but it began years before that. j and i have been together since i was 20. when i think about it, who i was then, what i thought my life would be like...i never imagined that i would still be with the one person who makes me laugh out loud, knows my most cherished secrets and my deepest fears, or who can make me want to pull my hair out in frustration sometimes, or who pushes me to be the person i most long to be (but can keep myself from), or who has given me a family and two sweet boys whom i adore, and who has taught me how to really love.
i look at our dresser and on top is a photo of j and i at my senior show in college. i see he and i both with long hair and that awkward stance of posing for a photo when you are newly dating, and next to it, is this photo from our wedding. i recall that november night under the pecan trees on the farm, being surrounded by nearly everyone in my world that i hold dear. i remember this dance, to this song, and thinking - wow, can life get any sweeter than this?!
and now here we are, ten years down the road. j's long hair is long gone but his creative passions and pursuits are still just as vivid. and i find myself surrounded by the one man and two little men whom i hold most dear in this world... and i think....was i ever wrong ten years ago, because life became sweeter still.
with all my heart, j, i love you more today than yesterday. happy anniversary. xoxo
