:: i am feeling restless and trying to surrender to that whirl as gracefully as i can
:: am not sure how to dress as it's not quite spring and not quite winter
:: am having some tiring, challenging parenting days lately (her post made me smile & exhale a bit more deeply)
:: am feeling happy to squeeze in a short run in the sunshine today
:: am loving introducing kai to harry potter and watching him laugh and react as i read
::admiring the sweet fairy house that is currently under construction in our garden
::smiling at the orange cat happily rolling in a warm sunbeam as i ran by
::feeling grateful for a card that arrived from a dear friend
::seeking peace in simply the present moment
::breathing deeply, slowly, thoughtfully
::searching for words to express how i am feeling
::eager to finish working on a canvas that had a rhythm which suddenly stopped, but each time i pass by now she is whispering possibilities
::wondering how it is possible that we will be celebrating a 7th birthday this month for our tenderhearted pirate...seven years in a mere blink of an eye
::embracing the upcoming weekend and the treasures she always brings
::finding peace on my yoga mat at an ungodly hour in the morning; i am grateful to feel gratitude and vibrant even through blurry, sleepy eyes
::discovering inspiration in the palette of sunsets and magic from evening strolls along sidewalks of glittering storefronts hand in hand with my smallest pirate
amid all the holiday excitement (and seemingly multiple melt-downs), i am pausing simply to notice.
presently...
sipping a caffè, seaside, with sunshine illuminating more than just the day
watching twinkling lights wrapped around a fresh tree
writing a list to release during the solstice and allowing space to dream (big) for 2013
celebrating from afar, my grandmother, who rang in her 96th birthday this weekend and looks and sounds as radiant as ever, ever thankful for her presence in my life
humming along to familar holiday tunes as the house fills with the scent of freshly baked cookies
finally feeling the chill of autumn
walking into a house that is cozy and warm and smells of freshly baked pumpkin pie, loving it
scrambling to get together a couple homemade ('cause they are the best) halloween costumes in order
gazing a little longer at the magnificent sunset this evening as the sky seems a brilliant canvas of vivid reds, pink, and oranges
happy to have painted for several hours this weekend, still no real plan with this painting, but love the journey she is becoming
thinking of all of our east coasties and holding them close in our hearts tonight ~ stay safe
i am coming out from the fog of migrane, for whatever reason, they seem to be plaguing me lately like they did in my 20's
i am feeling vulnerable in my parenting some days (sometimes there's a lot of bickering that happens between pirates on the high seas)...my mantra lately is 'just don't screw them up' oh yeah and while you're at it 'breathe'
i am listening to this song, over and over
i am feeling a little raw and tender lately and am thankful for my tribe of dear ones who have reached back
i am struggling with speaking italian...still...always it seems - it frustrates me to no end. i should be so much farther along by now
i am listening to the sea in my dreams and walking her shore in a sweater
i am trying to treat myself better along this journey - ensuring i allow time for me (which is a bad habit that i so easily give it to others)
i am hanging on sunsets, meditating on mornings, and saluting the sun from my mat
i am reading up on ayurvedic practices and working to make room in our lives for them
i am adding to my gratitude practice and extending a heartfelt thank you to those who have been teachers along my path
i am listening often to him and finding peace in the gap
i am running more and noticing much along my routes
i am reading her book and staring at two big blank canvas wondering, what next?
i am fishing pirate swords out from under the sofa while hoping to stumble upon buried treasure instead
and i am watching this (and sooooooo loving it - and thanking her for sharing) and watching this and resonating with his message (thank you to her for sharing)
presently...
i am standing at the backdoor watching the sunlight filter between the clouds, my mug warm in my hands. the murmur of the neighborhood emerging slowly in the background providing the soundtrack to my momentary daydream.
i am listening to one of my little pirates constructing something major and solving world issues with legos from the other room, while the other silently composes dreams in his sleep.
i am catching glimpses of colors from the flowers gracing the window sills.
i am noticing the push and pull that august always seems to bring with work about to resume in just a few weeks.
i am feeling grateful that my mom is on the mend in capable hands and thankful to those who stepped in to help out and support.
i am standing here in the doorway...breathing in and breathing out...and simply savoring each and every one.
